not another blog of melissa

2012-01-22T08:47:00.001-08:00

I'm a sucker for ice. I bought an ice tray from Saizen that can make round and diamond shaped ice. I really like the round ice. I tried taking pictures of it but I couldn't hold the ice that long.

This is actually a wrong out take but when I reviewed it in my computer, I really love this photo. It's so dramatic when it's actually just a piece of ice.

This is how it really looks like.

You can view more of my photos here.

2012-01-22T08:04:00.000-08:00

I am a person who gets bored easily so I always bring stuff to so when idle comes something keeps me preoccupied. Besides the usual gadgets I always bring around my pencil case and a notebook. I also tend to go overboard most of the time so I have to

set boundaries. So here are items that I need (as much as I want to bring all my coloring materials all the time I have to limit myself to essentials).

Luckily I found the type of pencil case. It's a roll-up kind with elastic bands and pockets for each pen/pencil. Got this from Toy Kingdom

1. Artline Calligraphy Pen Pt. 1 - this pen is with me for a long time. I can't even remember how many years but believe or not it still works. I love this because it has chiseled tip. I also have a version in Pt. 3 but this is more useful. It has the right broadness to easily fill in gaps but not to much that I still have control.

2. Faber Castel Mechanical eraser - I like this more rather than the usual rectangular one's. I have more control since its not that big.

3. Uni Pin Fine Line - Pt. 0.05, 0.2, 0.3, 0.5, 0.5 -I can't live without my felt tip pens! Ever since I was introduced with these in college. I didn't want to use any other pen. I have different points so when I am doing drawings I can easily control the width. I love the 0.05. this point is not so common. I love that I can do tini tiny lines with this!

4. Crayola Pip Squeaks - Black, medium gray and light gray. With my Christmas bonus I bought 32 marker set but I can't bring everything with me all the time so I just chose the neutrals.

5. Staedtler 6B pencil - this is a very soft lead pencil. I use this for shading.

6. Stabillo Exam Grade 2- I love using because it's just right. It's not soft like the 6B's or not as hard and harsh as HB's. This is my general go to pencil. So I always replace this since this is the most overused pencil.

7. Faber Castel Pencil in 2B and HB- like my pens I like pencils in different varieties.

8. Stabillo point 88 - black, gray and light gray -I also have 20 pieces set of these but I also only packed the neutrals

9. HTC blue ballpen- Even with fancy shmancy pens I still need a normal blue ball pen and this one I got from an event.

Not all artists bring these stuff. Most of the time I do my work digitally but I still want to dabble in traditional art. So when I'm on the go the most accesible art form for me is pen and ink.

So what's in your pencil case?

2012-01-22T06:39:00.000-08:00

I think it is time revamp my blog. I know I have a tendency of abandoning a blog and creating a new one. As tempting as that may sound to me I have made a promise that I will stick to this blog no matter what. So instead of opening a new blog I have decided to redesign the look instead.

The template design is not really made by me. I admit I suck at coding so I got a very nice free template from www.puglypixel.com and made customized it. The template is named Lemon Meringue you can get the template here

I used to be a prolific and courageous blogger. I blog anything under the sun and didn't think twice. Somehow getting older makes me think about what should and what I should NOT put out in the internet. I realized that quality is also very important. This will still be my personal blog but I will try not to focus so much about me. I will write more about my art, my work, my dreams, my inspirations and anything that I think could be helpful.

This will not be a serious blog. So I will try to be candid, funny (good luck to me!) but also be informative.

It's 2012! They say it will be the end of the world...and somehow it's also an end for me. It's the last year of my twenties. So I WILL chronicle my last year as a Twenteen!

I will end my post with a greeting "Kong Hei Fat Choi!

Starting my 2012 with a Cup of Coffee

2011-12-31T21:43:00.000-08:00

I woke up today to a cloudy weather but that does not mean that I should be in bed all day. I got up and promised myself that I would start the year with productivity! What is the best way to perk up my day a cup of coffee! Last year a splurged on a bag of good coffee but when I got home I could not find the coffee maker! Fortunately my friend Honeyel saw my Mom's French press. I don't think my bought it for coffee. I am the only one in the family who drinks coffee. I think she bought it for decorating purposes. So my coffee make problem was solved.

Yesterday I tried experimenting and my first attempt the coffee was watery. Today finally got it right!

After having a quick breakfast I got the New Year cake, and pieces of chocolate! I know I am starting my day filled with caffein induced hyperactivity!

End of 2011

2011-12-30T07:50:00.000-08:00

Another year is ending and a new one is just a day away. Here I am thinking about the year that has passed. I know I have not blogged enough. This year has been full of tribulations but also full of blessings.

2012 could mean a lot of things...some say it's the end of the world
Somehow it's also an end for me...it is the end of my twenties.

So I am making a vow that I should make my 29 count.

I leave you with lyrics from Incubus' Song
"If not Now, When"

I have waited

Dined on ashes

Swung from chandeliers and climbed Everest
And none of it's got me close to this

I've waited all my life
If not now, when will I?

We've been good
Even a blast, but
Don't you feel like something's missing here?
Don't you dare

I've waited all my life
If not now, when will I?
Stand up and face the bright light
Don't hide your eyes
It's time

No umbrellas
No sunglasses
Healing [hearing?] Hallelujah everyday

I've waited all my life
If not now, when will I?
Stand up and face the bright light
Don't hide your eyes
It's time

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmania.com/if_not_now,_when_lyrics_incubus.htmlAll about Incubus: http://www.musictory.com/music/Incubus

It's been AWHILE

2011-11-12T03:46:00.001-08:00

...
This just shows how I suck at blogging nowadays. I have been updating my branding tumblr. slimsea.tumblr.com It was suppose to be stuff for my rebranding but somehow my personal stuff is mixed.
I really should be fixing stuff.

Lately I feel I am in a rut. There are a lot of THINGS I should be doing (like getting my act together) but somehow I waste time on facebook. I should learn to go offline.

I need to have creative spark.

In a year I will be turning 30. I know it's just a number. Right now I don't even feel 29...(because I am really 28 going to 29 in less than a month). I am having one of those alone time so I will have my reflective moment! This is my blog and I will rant anything I want! Sigh...

I used to be fearless. I used to be spontaneous. Is this getting old feels like?

Book I am currently reading

2011-09-11T06:54:00.000-07:00

There are time I read a lot of books all at once. Well not really ready different books in one sitting. It's more of reading book alternately. Right now I am reading 5. It's usually just 2.

I never imagined myself reading ebooks. I really hate reading ebooks because my eyes hurt afterwards but somehow I got to finish Pretty Little Liars on my ipod touch. Now I am on the second book of the series.

I like reading book series. So this is book 11 of the Anita Blake series.

This a very short novel. I like reading this when I am tired of reading Anita Blake fast pace life. This the complete opposite of the Blake series.

This is a collection of Lourd's essays in spot.ph. I really love reading about his take of current events in the Philippines. I also love the treasure trove of words he uses.

Lastly I read this one so that I have an idea how to handle the business side of graphic design. I even bought markers so that I could high light the important parts.

How about you what is on your reading list?

Home made Mocha Frappe

2011-09-03T10:05:00.001-07:00

New Crushes!

2011-08-29T04:56:00.001-07:00

The very manly MAN Blake Shelton

And the Beautiful Andrej Pejic.

Two ends of the spectrum

Long weekend

2011-08-29T04:42:00.000-07:00

There are times when I feel like fate smiles down me. It's one of those 4 day long weekend. With the pressure from IELTS exam I think this break is timely. I planned to work on my rebranding. I have a separate tumbler for that (check it out sometime http://slimsea.tumblr.com). First day I wasted in the singing contest the Voice.

The original reason to watch this is Adam Levine but later on I seem to like Blake Shelton more. It made me realize that I am into BIG and TALL men. Blake is 6'5. Alexander Skarsgard is 6'4. Joe Manganiello is also 6'5...you see the trend here! hehehe

After a day's worth of cheering for the contestants and drooling over Adam and Blake I finally had my share of a day's worth of wasting time. Sunday was date time. Today I must make my break more productive. So finally made my logo. Yehey!

I will do the great reveal if I finish the whole brand identity.

Grey Skies

2011-08-12T07:41:00.000-07:00

Ever since I got a new tube of colored pencils I have been itching to draw everyday. I just drew random stuff. Somehow a spark is ignited in me. I think I have been complacent with my lifestyle. I have not made any new personal projects. I was busy with work and somehow going to and fro from the office and home seemed enough.

Today we had a very important announcement at my office. I would mean that my job would require more of me. I am not really scared of change. Every now and then I welcome big changes in my life. It makes my life interesting. Right now I feel my job has put on more weight. Somehow I just confirmed that I am apparently an Art Director. I heard my Boss introduced me that way and never really thought that is my position. I just thought that maybe it sounded better rather than introducing me as just another artist. Hehehehe I guess I'm just in denial most of the time.

Besides new challenges at work I will face another hurdle soon. I will take the IELTS again. Sigh. I kept on postponing it and hope I don't need to take the exam but I need get my bearings and face my fear head on. I hope I get the required score so I won't take the damn exam again!!!

I know my life would take another turn. So I think its time to reinvent myself, art wise.

The skies are grey today and so I painted my nails grey. Hmmm Grey seems the theme of the day.

I see RED

2011-08-10T03:01:00.000-07:00

I have a tendency to color coordinate everything. When I was in high school my favorite color was purple so all my stuff and clothes are either in purpler or different shades of it. Right now I am not really into Red. It just happens that my BF gave me a red external hardrive. When I got my laptop I got a red sleeve then later I bought a red casing. So after that I want my gadgets in red!

Here are present red stuff albeit the green earphones.

You can see here a Panasonic Lumix GF2, Blackberry curve 3G, jansport laptop backpack, Urban ears headphone and capdase ipod touch case. I want to buy everything but hopefully I get to buy one or two.

IELTS Back with a Vengeance

2011-07-14T06:52:00.000-07:00

After my one month hiatus from my IELTS review I back on the bandwagon again. My first plan was to take the IELTS this July 25 but with unforeseen circumstances I was indisposed for two weeks and failed to catch up with the registration deadline. It's not that I am that eager to face my impending doom. It would have been like one big thorn off my ass.

I might not feel the urgency but its there. I cannot postone any longer. I must muster all my courage and finish what I have started. Last Saturday I went to class again. I did not know a single person there. But is not new to me. Every time I see new faces. The class was small. We were only five in the morning. By the afternoon a student skipped the class and we were only four left. Ma'am Daisy was the lecturer. I am not really keen on her teaching methods. But still she have several good points to share. I guess I just don't find her entertaining. I know, I know...I did not went there to be entertain but to learn.

It was an uneventful class. I got five mistakes at the reading test. It's equivalent to 8. But I know I really have to strive harder. I REALLY need to get the highest marks I could muster.

So here I am planning to self study. One of the things I learned after my absences was that there are no night classes. It sucks for me because its the only I have. So I only got Saturdays.

I planning taking in August. That is in a month. I really have to work on my writing. So here I am trying to practice.

Focus....

It's been awhile since I wrote something. My writing is all over the place. I found that my writing is like the way I am thinking. I tend to move from one thing to another. I know I should organize my thoughts. From my practice tests I found I have no consistency. I really NEED to learn this discipline.

Sigh...

I know I still got a lot to learn.

Recovering

2011-06-23T06:17:00.000-07:00

Two weeks ago I would have blogged about my company's Summer outing, I would have blogged about my quick trip to Cebu but that feels like eons ago. After my quick trip to Cebu I got sick. It started Sunday afternoon. I did not feel well. I knew I going down with something. Monday came and I knew I could not got to work. I was having a fever. I thought I could just rest and ignore it but before lunch I knew this was not just any fever. Even though I am not really a person who likes to go to the Doctor I just agreed when my Aunt suggested we go to the Doctor.

It was tuesday when I was admitted to the hospital. When I got my second set of lab results, what my Doctor feared I had was confirmed. I had gotten dengue. After several days of high fever, losing your apetite, super low platelet count (my lowest was 11), 8 bags of platelet concentrate and consuming different remedies for dengue here I am writing how I feel lost.

I happy I am okay but I still feel weak.

2 weeks of stock photo freedom

2011-06-07T07:50:00.000-07:00

Last night while I was already slowly drifting to sleep I heard a beep from my Goldie (my ipod touch). Sheepishly I checked what was it. I found inksurge sent me a DM in my twitter. Curiouser and curiouser...

Then I found that I won a free 2 weeks subscription to Fotolia! Well that made me get up from bed and check my laptop. I reread the DM and follow the instructions. So before I fell asleep I was already thinking about stock photos.

This was the post about inksurge's contest.

Lately I have been joining twitter contests. Well not really putting much effort. It's just a malay mo effort. Well those malay mo effort does pay off. hehehehe

Di sa akin to na art galing fotolia

Well some may not be excited for a fotolia subscription, I mean not everyone is familiar with fotolia. If your not an artist by profession don't really give a damn about stock photos. I on the other hand I live off stock photos. It's always the cheaper alternative to looking for photos for projects rather than having a photo shoot.

I'm super excited what photos I would get. Specially this time I would be getting photos for myself! (Selfish much.)

Right now I am still thinking what would I get....

Hyper with coffee

2011-06-02T08:44:00.000-07:00

This is what happens when I am bored and little bit inspired (well actually hyper due to the coffee I drank earlier).

I wrote a letter for my sister....
Die...Die....
Actually I made origami...I used the cutter to cut the collar part.
hmmm smells like....
Then there a quick self portrait.

Then it's already 12. Time to go to sleep.

Because I want to!

2011-05-17T07:28:00.000-07:00

Yes, I can't help myself. Billie Piper in the 90's. Remember this song?

The Other Hannah

2011-05-17T06:17:00.000-07:00

Everybody is familiar with the Hannah Montana. A young girl who has a double life. But I am not going to write about her, rather I would write about Hannah. Same name but the similarities stop there.

The first scene warms you up with a blurred urban crowd shot with an upbeat music in the background. Then you see a woman is walking towards you. She is talking about London. You will see a very chic and classy lady. Expensive suit, a pearl necklace and carefully put make up. Then she says:

The first thing you should know about me is that I am a whore. - Belle/Hannah

After that opening scene I knew I was hooked. This is series not new. Actually Secret Diary of Call Girl has already aired its final episode. I read about this series a long time ago. A good friend of mine gave a copy of seasons 1-3 but I did not have extra time to watch it. Finally I got to watch it and got addicted to it. When I googled more about the series and found that it's only up to season 4.

The series is about a book that was also based on a blog but Belle du Jour. The author's identity was kept secret until recently when the author herself revealed her true identity to the public. Pretty interesting, you think?

What I loved about the series besides the lingerie and the sexy wardrobe is the humor. I didn't know that prostitution could have a humorous side. Belle is played by Billie Piper. If you think her face is familiar its because she was a famous pop star in the nineties. I did not really like her then but I like her now. I like her more as an actress than a singer (but somehow being a pop star came in handy when made goofy dance moves in one episode).

One of the things that somehow nearly hit home is her best friend Ben. I used to have a guy best friend. Seeing their dynamic made me miss having a guy best friend. But I suppose you can not be really best friends with a guy because in the end they came more than friends (Oh no spoiler!) and I on the other hand also had to cut my ties with best guy friend (I know the drama!).

I don't suggest this series for the general public because it definitely for adults. It's not for the faint of heart or the prude. Its for people who are open to explore, people who are not easily get offended and people who embrace their sexuality.

I will definitely add the books where the series was based on to my reading list.

Gazillion things to do

2011-05-17T05:52:00.000-07:00

There are a lot stuff I have to do but here I am sitting in front of the computer contemplating the days events.

Hmmm What to do next.....
I could back up my external hard disks....
I could read a book

I could blog...well obviously that is what I am doing right now...

Book Finds

2011-05-11T00:40:00.001-07:00

With a limited budget and book stores that only offer best sellers, a book lover like me have to resort to other sources to find my book fix. Well it's not just novels. I also look for graphic design books. Brand new graphic design books is really expensive. So I go to the ukay-ukay version of books, second hand bookstores.

Looking for a good book at second hand shop can be a challenge. You should know what you are looking for. I happy that I get to find good graphic design books that cheap. They are not the latest editions but still they can still be very good reference. I know you can do your research through the internet nowadays but nothing beats a tangible book in your hands.

My latest finds:

Inspirability: 40 Top Designers Speak About What Inspires -Pash

For Sale. Over 200 Innovative Solutions in Packaging Design -John Foster

Designing with type. A Basic Course in Typography -James Craig and William Bevington

Inspirability: 40 Top Designers Speak About What Inspires -Pash

It's hard for graphic designers to stay inspired when they're constantly working to deadlines. Inspirability gives them a fresh look at how to keep those creative fires burning in the real world, with: Interviews with 40 design luminaries, including Stefan Sagmeister, Paula Scher, Milton Glaser and Chip Kidd; Fascinating pictures the designers have taken of themselves and their offices, as well as samples of their design work; Revealing insights into what inspires each designer on a day-to-day basis; This book offers an original take on one of the most requested topics by graphic designers. It's a must-have tool for lasting inspiration.

I am a person who remember names of notable people. I remember more of their works. This book feature 40 graphic designers, some I am familiar and then there are some who its my first time to encounter. This books is like peer on the minds of the other artists.

For Sale. Over 200 Innovative Solutions in Packaging Design -John Foster

For Sale showcases packaging designs from 50 top firms. 15 firms are showcased with several spreads of work samples and an in-depth interview to capture their creative process and best advice. Profiles include noted packaging designers Wink, Sub Pop, Werner Design Werks, Starbucks, Modern Dog, Turner Duckworth, Art Chantry, Fossil, Invisible Creature and more.

One of the things that I love with my job is packaging design. Looking at delightful packing never fails to inspire me.

Designing with type. A Basic Course in Typography -James Craig and William Bevington

This is more of a text book for graphic designers. In my time my typography teacher did not really dwell much on specifics. So now I really like reading about the basics.

My Vice

2011-05-07T15:35:00.000-07:00

*All this IELTS review tips makes me write and rewrite my entries that I always end up deleting the few lines I have written.

Ever since I was a little girl I really enjoyed books. My Mother said that instead of going to sleep with stuffed toys I was sleeping with a book. Through the years my book preferences has evolved. One thing didn't change. My love for collecting books.

During high school I started reading novels. I have a tendency that if I like a certain author I need to read all the stuff he/she wrote. Well I was not only about reading books. I really liked collecting them. With my meager allowance I got by books one by one. My Mom is also love reading books so was happy to help me complete my collections. Four years in high school somehow I filled up a shelf. Maybe it was 50 books or more. I took pride with book collection.

That time I was into vampires and horror novels. This was before twilight phenomenon. I had books by Anne Rice, Stephen King, and what not. My parents entered a Catholic Charismatic group that did not advice reading works "inspired by the devil". So they ended up burning my books. Family drama aside, that did not stop me from reading and collecting books.

When I went away for college I started anew with my book collection. This time I was no longer attached with my books like last time. After my senior year I had a lot of books. I only kept a few. The others, specially the ones I know my parents would not approve of I gave away.

Moving from one place to another made me loose interest in have a book collection. I still enjoy reading books but did not really cared about what happened to my books afterwards. I started hoarding books again when I was assigned in Cebu for a company training. That time I had no other past time. I didn't have a computer or a tv at the house I stayed. The cheapest way to keep myself busy with my free time was buying books. I didn't bought new books. I got my books from second hand books shops. When I got extra money later I bought new books. So I read one books after another.

When I was assigned back in Davao I fell in love again with book collecting. So starting building my library. I still love buying second hand books. Now I love reading books series. I used to avoid them since completing a series was a hassle because there are a few good book stores here in Davao. Second books stores is not option since you can't really predict what books you can find there. I am glad that the internet made finding books so much easier. My first option is to buy second hand books to save more. Then there are days I do splurge one buying new books. I also blackmail my bf buying me some from time to time.

Right now I think a chunk of my paycheck goes to book buying. I admit that this is my current vice. My bf calls me an addict. Books are really my weakness. I can stop myself buying clothes, gadgets, and food. But when it comes to books I sometimes buy and not think. I know I must stop this book hoarding and finish reading all the books.

This is my book collection (novels, my graphic design books are in another pile somewhere...) . It's not complete because there a couple of books at that are borrowed by my friends. Funny, I tend to look the first book in my book series.

Eye Candy!

2011-04-28T08:12:00.000-07:00

pwede na akong matulog...hehehe

From Crappy to Happy

2011-04-28T07:33:00.001-07:00

Ysai and Me jumping

I woke up the wrong side of the bed today. I woke up late and I felt lazy. I tried to make my mood better and drank coffee. Which was a bad idea. It made me nauseous and made me palpitate. Then the heat was another story all together. So commuting to work I was having a headache. My bf text message me if we could have lunch together. It should have been good news but he asked if we could take an early lunch. I was super late already. I agreed to his proposition by the time I arrive I would be having lunch. So I postponed the lunch tomorrow. I was not really feeling well in the jeep. I felt that I could puke any time. So when I finally arrived. I took my time crossing the street. I felt I was having an asthma attack. Slowly I got the 4th floor. I took a breather and planned for my work load. Since I was having a crappy day I decided to buy lunch just to make me feel a little bit better. I also bought dvd's for the office. Along the way it just popped to my mind to have old watch looked at. I had my watch batteries replaced. After my errands, I tried to look at watch strap. The mechanism of my old watch works fine but it has no straps. The department store did have straps available. My money was not enough for the strap so I said to myself I will be back. So later that evening I did came back. I got the straps my old watch of 15 years is good as new again! Yehey! After that I also spotted a nice looking laptop backpack. Needless to say I did have a shopping spree. I was really happy with my purchases. When I got home I saw that package finally arrived. Another yehey!

Tomorrow things are looking up (and I better be on time since I have now a watch again.)!

Home at Last?

2011-04-27T21:28:00.000-07:00

Un packing

It's more than a week since I came back from Cebu. I am almost back to my normal routine again. Well...Almost. My bag are still unpacked. They lay sullen and in chaos along with my books in my room. I have changed bed sheets of my parents' bed but there are still stuff at a disarray. I have not yet arranged my things. Getting my groove back seems to be an on going work in progress.

It is almost a year since I am left by my family in the Philippines. I am not new to this distance from loved ones. I have been living on my own since college. Somehow there is a certain emptiness in my house. I am used to leaving my family to study or work somewhere else but it's different when you are the one who is left behind. Now it's almost a year I still can't fill the spaces. Somehow home seems to be where I am and not where I live.

Double Decking

All my life I have been moving from one place to the next that I don't really have a specific place that I really felt at home. Right now even though I got the whole house to myself I'd rather go somewhere else. When I was in Cebu at first I had to go adjust to new surroundings. I lived in a boarding house for women. I had room mates. Sadly I did not really got to know them. I just knew their names when I saw the list my land lady posted on the door. My room mates were sisters. The older sister worked at a real estate company (I don't know as what but I gathered that info looking at her office uniform) and the younger girl studies at San Carlos. I assume her course is Accounting based on the accounting books laying everywhere. They seemed to be happy girls, I couldn't really tell based on my observations that they were having any problems. Landlady told me that were super late with rent. I saw how much they owed the place when monthly accounting of payments was posted on the boarding house door. Somehow I am sad for them because there was a point that my landlady had to let them go. Even though I don't know the real story I do offer a prayer for the two. I pray that wherever they would go things would be better.

Condo living

The company only payed for two months so when my time was up I left and went to live at my Boss' condo. For the remaining 3 weeks I got to stay at the quaint condo. I really liked living there because its fully furnished. It's a mini home. When I arrived the place my first reaction was "Yehey there is a ref!". I made plans already on what things I could put it there. After my initial grocery I immediately made ice! hehehe There was also an electric stove. Sad, I only got to use it once since I really don't know how to cook. I really liked the idea a place of your own. Where you can plan things and not think twice what would your mother think. Hopefully one day I get to have that.

Well now that I am back here in my good old house, I still feel I have not yet arrived home. Hopefully one day I get to say I'm home and I'm going to stay.

This is the view from the mini balcony of the condo

Back in Davao

2011-04-17T02:38:00.000-07:00

Yup I'm back in Davao. My Cebu is stint over. I will definitely miss my officemates in Cebu. I will still get to work with them but it's different if you see them in person. My stuff is not yet unpacked. I have loads of things to do to settle in. The Holy week is coming and I have no plans yet. I will definitely must make a post of my Cebu adventure.

Right now I am just enjoying a lazy Sunday before another Monday rush.

Craving for coffee right now.

Violet - Aka Veevee

2011-03-26T05:22:00.000-07:00

I have been a bad blogger. Haven't blogged anything and March is almost over!

It's not that I don't have things to blog I just don't have the time to sit down and write a decent entry. Last entry was about the death of Ipod touch. Even thou

gh I still miss my Ipod touch. I got a new member of my gadget family.

Ooooh Package from Singapore

Me and my sister usually give names to our gadgets. Like Potchot, Megumi, Kiiro, Cameron D, and Kee yat. When I finally got my MBP I wanted to give her a name. There was a time when I was addicted to old Brooke Shields movies.

I really liked her in the Pretty Baby movie.

So I decided to name my MBP Violet. Then my sister gave her a nickname. Veevee!

With Veevee there shouldn't be any excuse for me not to blog!

A very expensive paper weight

2011-02-03T14:03:00.000-08:00

It's official my Cameron D is dead. A few days ago my ipod touch took a swan dive into a bucket filled with water. I was going to take a bath and decided to listen to music. Of all the possible places I could have put it, (sa katangahan ko!) I placed it the grilled thingy that we usually put the toiletries. I was arranging it then plop.

Grrrr I was supposed to buy a new LX5 camera but now I will definitely put a hold on that again!

Oh well...life goes on.

Ever since I arrived in Cebu it has been a whirlwind. I have not even arranged all my stuff or bought all the necessary things I will be shipped again to Manila this Sunday. The trip to Manila will be a short one though. To think I have not even unpacked all my things. Somehow all this busyness has kept me from mulling over things. My Bf thinks that my hectic schedule has also a good result. I don't get to be in my EMO mode. He knows that I tend to be melancholic here in Cebu (especially since I don't have any friends besides my officemates).

There are a lot of new experiences coming my way. Like later I get to do my first job interview. I am not applying for a new job, mind you. I will be on the other side of the table. I will the interviewee (as my sister would say Charang!). Got to put on a serious face. Hehehehe

The light is already out and my hyper-acidity is acting up. It's time to get some breakfast of some sort.

Cebu Here I Come!!!

2011-01-29T16:52:00.000-08:00

Right now I'm here in the airport waiting for my flight. The past week has been very hectic. I had to settle domestic affairs (still there are loose ends but I could manage to sooth it out in Cebu). I was also very busy with work. In between that I'm happy this got to spent time with the BF.

Somehow I have mixed feeling for this trip. I am excited but nervous. I am sad to leave my friends but happy to face new challenges in Cebu (As my sister would sa Charang!!!). I really did not know what to pack. I didn't want to bring lots of clothes because I really don't know how long my stay would last. I brought my art stuff though. Last time when I was assigned in Cebu I had loads of free time. So the bulk of my stuff are things to get me preoccupied for vacant moments.

I did not want to bring books because it would add to the weight. Luckily I found sending books doesn't cost that much. I sent myself 6 books through 2Go and paid only 70 pesos! Besides my book situation resolution I still had to pay LOTS for excess baggage. Maybe I'll send my stuff through a carrier next time.

Hope this Cebu thing will bring lots of new things to blog about! hehehe

*Will post later packing days pictures.

SWIM

2011-01-23T08:00:00.000-08:00

Despite the problems I have been facing lately I find myself sane and surviving the daily grind. I don't know how I manage. But push comes to shove...I have to swim.

Ah Sunday. Well for others its usually lazy Sundays for me ...its another story. Don't worry won't bitching about my problems.

Now to good things in life...Small stuff but makes me happy!.

Fist stop. Nail polish. My sister is a nail polish freak. I also enjoy painting my nails from time to time. From the care package my Mom sent. My sister got me cool crackle finish nail polish. Still working on how th get the best results.

"I hate weddings,' she says. 'They make me feel so unmarried. Actually, even brushing my teeth makes me feel unmarried."
— Melissa Bank (The Girls' Guide to Hunting and Fishing)

Yes the book hoarding has begun!

I haven't finalized when I will be leaving but I already got the bags out. I'm pondering what would I bring since the move will be just temporary. hehehe You can also see my books are out and not my clothes. I'm thinking more of things I would bring so I will not be bored. I plan not bring lots of clothes, I will just hoard Ukay-ukay in Cebu. hehehe

Shot para igat!

2011-01-23T07:55:00.000-08:00

Just finished my TVC storyboard, now to take out JD and coke!

Estrezzzed

2011-01-07T04:19:00.000-08:00

Lately I have been so STRESSED. It's not just with my work. It's everything. So is this how it feel like to be an adult? hehehehe

Despite the things to do that are piling up I still try to have a positive outlook. Life is short and it is a waste if I ponder on negativity. So I got surround myself with inspiration stuff.

For example

Then I also see his tweet about it

Sigh. Pangpawala ng stress bow.

Good morning 2011

2010-12-31T17:17:00.000-08:00

This what happens when my Mom is not around. hehehehe pure unadulterated chaos!

It's a new year. Another beginning. For me it's like a new page to a fresh new sketchbook. While last year was a messy unfinished sketchbook (lots of unresolved issues) I will aim that this year will be a fine year. I know that most has already made their new year's resolution list. I on the other have fixated on just one word.

MORE

From what I have achieved last year I am demanding myself to do more. Last year was a year of changes for me. Even up to last days of year I was faced with lots of changes. All I did was try to adapt and survive the year. I know it was not the best year but it was not also the worst. Stress have been my constant companion with the last few months, I know stress will not abandon me now. Instead of looking stress as fiend I will look at her as mentor. Yes it has already dawned to me that I am already an adult. Yikes! I have been living in this illusion that I am still a kid. Responsibilities a bitch I tell you!

This year I must achieve more. Things are changing for me. I think the days living in my comfort zone is over. God has sent me all this challenges not to pull be down but to make me do more in my life. So now I just tell myself "Bring it on!"

Good morning 2011

Thank God for small things

2010-12-24T19:35:00.000-08:00

First things first, I want to greet everyone a merry Christmas!

Christmas for me this year is kinda sad and lonely. Most of my family is in Australia. I didn't celebrate Noche Buena alone but still I do miss celebrating it with my family. On the lighter side it made appreciate the small things. Yesterday I attended mass alone. It was somehow comforting to see people with their families. The church was packed. I arrived 15 minutes early but still I could not get a seat. I didn't mind standing as long as I get to attend mass. I was already at the outside part of the church. A few minutes into the mass it started to drizzle. I didn't want to get wet so I went inside the church. It was not an easy feat. The entrance was full and the thought running in my mind, hope there is no stampede. After I worm my in I found a spot. After standing for awhile someone tapped at my back. A woman offered a seat. She said that the one who sat there went outside. It might be temporary but a break to my feet sounded nice. It was a small act but somehow made my Christmas a little bit better.

Small things but still God have ways to tap me in the shoulder and say, Hey I'm still here.

Before I get sentimental here I will share another small thing that I am thankful for.

The print ad I designed is already out full paged and full color!

28

2010-12-05T07:19:00.000-08:00

Yup I'm that old. Two years to go and I'll be in my thirties. Yuck! hehehehe

Lelit's Orange Dragon Gift

2010-11-27T01:09:00.001-08:00

For my friend Lelit's gift I gave her Steig Larsson's Millennium trilogy. It's actually a shared gift from my bf and I. I wanted to make the gift wrap inspired by the books.

Key elements dragon, bold letters and neon colors

I could not find a gift wrapper with dragon in it so instead I wrapped the gift in an orange cartolina and used temporary tatoos to place the dragon design. I accented the gift with a neon green ribbon.

I had no time to print out a card so with my rusty hand I tried to write the card in bold letters.

Jorel and Karen's personalized wedding Gift

2010-11-27T00:53:00.000-08:00

For my Cousin Jor-el's Gift I wanted to do something personal.

So I made two illustrations and placed it into two different frames.

The wedding was held in Manila so there is traveling involved so bubble wrap is key!

After securing it with bubble wrap I lined the box with Japanese paper.

I bought this gift box from Chimes where you can get cute boxes there in different size. The Gift box can be reused and also adds charm to the gift. This how the gift box looks like with a cover.

Finished Gift with Ribbon. My Friend Monica did the ribbon.

Jessie's Black and Red gift

2010-11-27T00:24:00.000-08:00

I love giving gifts. I really love looking for the right gift for the person. I also love wrapping gifts. Last November 25 was Jessica's birthday. When I saw this cute book from booksale, I knew Jessie would love this.

Aside from the book I got a miniature Absolute Kurant and a Drambuie

I got my red and black inspiration from the book cover

Wrapped them separate with red japanese paper

Here is the gift. Fully wrapped and ready for giving!

P.S. The gift was a hit. Not only Jessie loved the gift even my other friends liked it.

My guilty pleasures

2010-11-14T17:35:00.001-08:00

After reading Steig Larsson's Millennium trilogy. I am just enjoying some light read. I have discovered Mtv books. It's basically just young adult novels.

Thanks to booksale got these book at only P 20, P45 and P 75.

Besides my mtv books I also got new books (I know I promised myself not to buy new books....) Digital Fortress, Stepford Wives, Totto-chan and The girls guide to hunting and fishing.

To anyone who shares my addiction, happy reading!

Sleep Blogging

2010-11-14T08:58:00.000-08:00

It's 1 a.m. in the morning and my mind is still working like crazy.

I went to Lelit's to see Manny Pacquiao's fight. I'm not really a boxing fan but I like hanging out at my friend's house and watch everyone enjoy the fight. I tried to drag my bf but the day before we had a Big Bang Marathon and the day before that we also hang out. He is the type who can't go out many nights in row. He has to recharge. So while he is recharging I have my bonding time with Lelit, Don, Jessie, Dennis, Linda, Lara and Patchik.

Here are pictures from early this day...

Jessie, Me and Lelit

Meet Jessie's Baby Liam!

Meet Lelit's baby Chewy! hehehe

And this is Don's baby

Linda and Dennis

Me and Linda

All photos are from my bf's ipod. He left his ipod the other night. I am secretly wishing his ipod could mate with mine so they can have small ipod nano babies! hehehehe

On another note before I started this entry I made a quick logo for a personal project. Ever since I have been sending postcards to my sister I fell in love with snail mail again. I know it really DOES take long before my sister gets my postcard but the wait worth it. Nothing beats a tangible postcard rather than just a text, or an email. So I am collecting addresses and planning sending nice soon.

Here is the quick logo I made.

I will update you when I finally get to start on this small project of mine.

My eyes are getting heavy and I really think I should get some shut eye.

Leather and Lace Ball in the Edge

2010-11-11T18:59:00.000-08:00

Look at the top most left corner thats a picture of Lelit, Linda, Jessie and me. (Click the picture to enlarge)

Leather and Lace Ball

2010-11-08T06:19:00.000-08:00

I didn't post this in the recap because I feel this event DEMANDS a blog post. It's rare that you will see in make up. Those who knows me well that I went through a Goth phase. When I heard about this party I was really excited. It's been a long time since I don black clothes and put on make-up.

The Leather and Lace Ball is a fundraising and awareness event aimed at informing everyone about HIV/AIDS while still having fun. Everyone is invited and there is no cover charge at the door although donations are welcome. All proceeds of this event will fund the HIV/AIDS awareness campaign
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I went with the girls!

(From the Left: Lelit, Linda, Me and Jessie *Photo Kenneth Irving Ong)

*Photo Kenneth Irving Ong

Lelit Loving it!

(other photos are courtesy of Lelit. My photos sucked. I really need a nicer camera!!!)

I really fun...until next year!

Walang Magawa sa Buhay

2010-11-08T06:14:00.000-08:00

I miss doing this... senseless photo manipulations of my pictures!

Two Words

2010-11-07T21:56:00.001-08:00

It's one of those days when my cravings are heightened. I definitely want to sink my teeth into DARK chocolate or eat slices of cheese! Yum!

Briday Party

2010-11-06T09:52:00.000-07:00

It was my first time to host party at my house (with out the parental supervision). It was at first a surprise party for my friend Rochella. It was double celebration. It was her birthday/ bridal shower. Honey and I planned and schemed what could we do to make Rochella's party memorable.

It was not really a bridal party because Michael was present but we still have fun. Rochella was really surprised...well she knew about the party. She was surprised with the quick AVP we made for her. Days before I contacted friends, classmates, family and co-workers of Rochella to give her a message. Thank God Honey was a master with Windows Movie maker and compiled everything. I also got a customized cake for Rochella. Honey cooked and I researched on how to make jello shots.

I'm glad my first party to host was a success!

ReCap- Missed events

2010-11-06T09:11:00.000-07:00

Empire State of Poverty

2010-11-04T22:45:00.000-07:00

The past month I have been on a shopping rampage. Last time I reviewed the collateral damage. After adding and subtracting I discover in order to balance my finances I have to take out a huge chuck of my measly savings. Oh well...Lesson learned don't let your hormones take charge of the shopping.

Since I am a rehabbed pessimist I will view this predicament as a fresh start for my LX5 fund.

My Birthday is a month away and I don't feel like celebrating. First I don't have the funds, second my whole family is in Australia and third I feel old. In a month I will 28. Ack! I'm already in my late twenties. In 2 years time its going to be the big 30.

Right now I have no choice but to cramp my style and do fun things with out spending a dime. Thus leads me to this motto:

Translation: Wala akong pera. hehehe

Can anyone give me suggestions on fun things to without a budget?

Reformat, Rejuvenate, Renew

2010-11-04T00:26:00.000-07:00

I think I should device a new way so that I could blog more often. I should reformat the over all look of this blog.

This is the list of events that I should have been blogging about:

September: My Manila visit - I got to see my college friends. It was years since I last saw them.

October: This was eventful. There were birthday parties (My boyfriend's grand mother's 90th birthday, my friend Lelit's Birthday and Donie's birthday), then there was my cousin Jor-el's wedding, another trip to Manila (due to the wedding), and then there was the Halloween party at Legaspi Suites.

I'll try my best to gather photos and finally make an entry about it. Better late than never!

....baby steps to get my blogging groove back.

OMG

2010-11-01T03:07:00.000-07:00

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh My God!

My last post was last August! Major blog fail!

My messy bag

2010-08-12T07:59:00.000-07:00

Lately I have been lazy in organizing my stuff. I just dump things in my bag so one day I spilled all the contents of my bag on my bed to check if maybe there is already a civilization living in there.

Keys! House keys, Office keys, desk keys and other keys !

My gadgets that I can't live without.

From the left: charger for my cellphone and ipod, charger for my digi cam, my digi cam, external hardisk and my ipod touch Camron D.

Female Stuff.

From the left: Tissue (can't live without em), comb, toothbrush (actually this already a discarded tooth brush since its close encounter with the friendly cockroaches), I don't need to explain this purple package, 2 bottles of perfume, liquid soap, medicine (in case) and the checkered purse are filled with other stuff (I don't want to elaborate trust me).

Lastly the essentials

From the left: Dexter book 4 (I already finished this book but I always bring a book with me), extra bag, my eyeglasses with my shades, bookmark, black cahier moleskin (its not filled with guy phone numbers its more filled with my weekly budget), my cardholder (courtesy of sunlife), my 2 cellphone, my colored pens, my pencil case, scissors, ballpen, lolipop, rings, Zesto tetra pack purse (its a purse not thrash), and black coin purse.

I admit I KNOW I bring a lot of stuff everyday but I can't help it.

New Spoon!

2010-08-12T07:43:00.001-07:00

There was a time I had a bad day and to make things worse while commuting I lost my spoon. I bring lunch to work so its not unusual for me to lug around a spoon and fork. I was really sad to lose the spoon. It's not that it has a sentimental value or its expensive but somehow it just made me feel I loss something at that moment.

Last Saturday I finally bought myself a new set of utensils.

For me its like turning over a new leaf. So its not just the spoon, I will try ...no wait I will do more of everything. I would push myself harder. Living one day after another like a zombie is not like living. I must wake my creative senses so that life will not be so mundane and boring.

I raise a glass...or for my case I raise my spoon...to life!

Narita Brothers

2010-06-13T07:36:00.000-07:00

I'm not really a sporty kind of person but I was suprised with myself when last Saturday I found myself by the sideline of a motorcylce trickshow. I know I am such a noob when its comes to anything to do with sports. Even though I can be a geek but there was a phase in high school I was facinated with motorcycles. My mom even placed a motorcyle on my birthday cake. Back then then I used to draw harley's. So the show last Saturday somehow ignited my lost fascination.

I went to Yamaha's event to research about motorcycles for work. Luckily a friend lent me his D80. I got pictures the previous day with my point and shoot camera but it was definitely a treat to have a Nikon D80 to take pictures.

Takumi

Ryo

What have I been up to...

2010-06-05T21:33:00.000-07:00

Keys of the house turned over by my Mom

I know I have not blog for quite some time now. My Mom and my sister finally left for Australia. It's already been a month since they left. I thought that maybe this time I could blog more because I will more time to myself. I was wrong. I have been trying to manage my time. The house is too big for me. I am not living alone. I have my Aunt and a household help sharing my sombre existence. I feel lonely at times, specially when I go the master bedroom. I the big empty bed just makes me sad. Right now since the aircon in mater bedroom is buster I am camping out in the prayer room. I never imagined myself to sleep there because there is a big crucifix there and it kinda creeps me out. But humidity is killing me. So here I am sleeping soundly in the prayer room.

Bills

One of the things I got have to face with my current living status is paying the bills and handling all household problems that arises. I have been a palamunin since forever and this bill paying is kind of alien to me. I hate to admit it but I feel like an adult. I know, I know...that I could live in this bubble of mine forever. Responsibilities...its not me. hehehehe

Retail Therapy

I have been trying to save to make up for the money I lost (that is another story). Still I can't help myself to splurge once and in while. I saw that body shop was having a sale. I got myself an Oceanus Eau de toilette and sugaring hair removal for almost half the price. I am not really a perfume kind of girl but the last time I bought myself one it was from bodyshop. I really like ther perfume there because the smell doesn't wear off easily. I also got the sugaring hair removal that hoping I finally found the perfect product for my hair removal. Me and my sister tried lots of stuff. Hot wax, cold wax, hair removal cream and shaving. We liked waxing but hot wax is easier when you have another person helping you. When you are alone its really a chore. So far I liked using the saguaring. I just pop it in the microwave for a couple of seconds and its ok. I like a more simplified hot waxing. So far so good.

moleskines

When I saw that avalon was selling not so brand new moleskine for less I grab a couple for myself and my sister. I got a large sketchbook for my sister. I got a watercolor and a set of 3 ruled journals. I finally got the watercolor moleskine. I want to go back in using watercolor as a medium. For the journals I'm planing to write all my expenses there. I know I can put the list in my ipod touch but I really like writing things down and crossing out stuff in my checklist.

watercolor love

When I got my moleskine I was really excited to use it. But a freak like me I want new watercolor with it. I still have my prang watercolor from college but still I bought a set of 12 color faber castel watercolor pencils and a prang glitter watercolor. I am planning to take my small watercolor pencils everywhere so that I can sketch anytime and apply the water later. I bough the prang glitter watercolor because I am sucker for shiny things. watercolor + glitter = love! My bf also bought me a set of 15 caran d'ache water soluble crayons. I can't wait to start my watercoloring!

scanning old college pictures

The other day I got to have a chat with my college classmate, Hycee. She really wanted to see old pictures. Even though it was really late I got my album out and scanned the photos. We had a blast reminiscing college days. I was sleepy at that time but lost the feeling after seeing and laughing at the pictures. I really miss my college barkada. I hope I do get to see them this September.

Abreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeza

2010-02-21T05:55:00.000-08:00

I can finally say "I survived the Abreeza event!".

Last week was a very busy week. We had to prepare a lot of stuff for the Abreeza's Merchants visit. It was a complicated event since it didn't took place in one location. It was airport-Pearl Farm Marina-Abreeza Site- then back to Pearl Farm Marina. We had to have all the help we needed. Mong from Camp Cebu flew in and there was also Erick the assistant.

I learned a lot from the event. I got to learn to stay calm and try to make the most of out a given situation. Events are usually the source of action in my line of work. I did not document the preparations. I only got a couple of snapshots right after the event.

Erick, Mong, Me and Marga

Presenting the Camp M team: Marga, Mel and Mong

It was a crazy week but a memorable one. The Event turned out fine and somehow I could finally take a deep breath.

Post Valentines Post

2010-02-21T05:42:00.000-08:00

from Mom

Better late than never chocolates from Uly

Pomelo Pink Wedding

2010-01-15T07:14:00.000-08:00

I have a soft spot for weddings. Some how its my guilty pleasure to look at weddings. My ideal wedding changes as I grow older. As I start my year, I am bless to attend a wedding of my high school classmate Rea's wedding.

I really loved the way that this wedding made me feel that love is in the air!

Pretty bridesmaids. The third one from the left is Sarah who came back from UK

My other high school classmates I haven't seen in years. (From the left Cham, Erick and Andrew)

The wedding was beautiful. It was held at Eden Garden Resort.

My and my Mom

Keepsakes from the couple.

Good living extends...

2010-01-15T07:03:00.000-08:00

My first week back to work I was super busy with an event for Chula Vista. There were lots of stuff I had to do. After a week of preparation it finally bear fruit.

The main tent area.

the stage with a background of the development

the new gate before the ribbon was cut

the flamenco dancers

finally the new flyer is out

My First Attempt at Water color

2010-01-02T21:28:00.000-08:00

Plans

2010-01-02T19:08:00.000-08:00

It's Sunday and I already have work tomorrow. The Holiday season is over. Before the rush of reality comes back I must list down all the things I want to accomplish this year.

First things first the main goal this year is to loose weight.

After college I started to gain weight...(there was only a brief period that I lost weight, it was during my rebels phase) and right now I think I really to loose weight. I am not that conscious with how I look like but I still think I need loose these fats and shape up. I plan to do more exercise. I am now scouting for a good gym. I also plan to diet. The last quarter of 2009 I did not really follow my diet plans plus the holiday season equals disaster. hehehehe

Next in my agenda is to work on personal art projects.

Last year I didn't produce any. Even with my lomo I seldom took out my camera. I still have rolls of film. So this year I plan to go back to my water color painting. Right now I am still in the practicing stage. Hopefully I will get to do decent art works these year. I also plan to make an updated portfolio and finally start the blog me and my bf will put up.

So far those are the two pressing matters I have to address this year. Others are just small stuff. I need to get a driving license and start using the revo. I also want to travel these year, may it be neighboring places like Camiguin or tourist destination like Boracay. Then there's saving for a LX3 camera.

Hopefully these I will be a good one.

Good Morning B

2010-01-01T18:36:00.000-08:00

I had pressed send message on my cellphone. I thought I should have the right music before I write this post. I shook my ipod to shuffle the songs and this song came out..

A warning sign, I missed the good part then I realized, I started looking and the bubble burst. I started looking for excuses. Come on in, I've gotta tell you what a state I'm in, I've gotta tell you in my loudest tones, That I started looking for a warning sign. When the truth is, I miss you. Yeah the truth is, That I miss you so. A warning sign, You came back to haunt me and I realized you were an island and I passed you by, You were an island to discover. Come on in, I've gotta tell you what state I'm in, I've gotta tell you in my loudest tones, That I started looking for a warning sign. When the truth is, I miss you. Yeah the truth is, That I miss you so. And I'm tired, I should not have let you go. So I crawl back into your open arms. Yes, I crawl back into your open arms. And I crawl back into your open arms. Yes, I crawl back into your open arms...

I had just celebrated my second anniversary with my bf. It didn't feel like it was two years. It went by so fast. This is not my first relationship so I had already different experiences when it comes to relating to another person. I know that having a relationship with someone is a work in progress. Everyday could be day more in your relationship or it could be a day less. Each person is different. Somehow along the way you will find someone who seems to the most imperfect match for you but is also the person who understands you most. You don't talk much because you have different interests but you will not need an exchange of words to hear you out. If you are far apart you feel like its rest from seeing each other but actually its a way to build up your anticipation to him again. Today and the future seems the same. It's knowing that you have someone that will hold hand.

When I look at my relationship with Uly it is so different from my past. It's not complicated, its not filled with interesting conflicts...it's not the type people write about. It's as bland as it can get. But I had been through a lot of experiences before. They were like art film movies. Full of passion, mystery and at times secresy. I am tired of all the plots twists and turns. I just want to wake up and just know that I love one person and that person loves me.

He came to me when I least expected. I thought that could never feel this way. I am his first, he may not be mine but I wish I will his last.

P.S. After writing this I realized I don't credits in my Cellphone so I got up and looked for my sister's cellphone.

2009

2009-12-31T04:43:00.000-08:00

Another year is over and a new one is beginning...

sad events

I cannot say it was a bad year but I also cannot say that it was good either. My country as a whole had a rough year. I also had my share of unfortunate events. I lost a grandmother, a cousin, an aunt and an uncle. Even though life seems hard I still had to continue on living.

family

This year my family faced a new chapter. My father went to Australia to try his luck there. My mother and sister will probably follow next year. I on the hand still do not know if my fate will also bring me to Australia. Right now I am just in waiting phase. Immigrating to Australia is still not a certain thing.

work

After staying half of year last year in Cebu, this year I was assigned back here in Davao. I miss my officemates in Cebu but my home is here in Davao. I faced a lot of challenges. I got to do a photo shoot on my own. I got to do stuff that normally I used to be too shy to do it. I also had to train myself to work independently since my boss and art directors are miles away. I know I still got a lot to learn. It's just sad that one of art directors is leaving. I will definitely miss working with her. I am thankful for her patience with me. Next year I will strive harder.

love

I had to spend more time with bf since I was back in Davao. We celebrated our second anniversary. It's the second longest relationship after Joe. I admit after I broke up with my college bf I was a mess. I had a string of relationships after but didn't last long. I young and naive. I still had a lot of issues then. Finally when least expected I met someone that would matter a lot to me. My love story with Uly is not complicated one, it's not the love stories you see in movies or read in books. It just a simple story of 2 people understanding each other. The love story pacing might be slow but I know it will be a long one.

art

This year I was very lazy to do any personal projects on my own. I guess I was caught up with work and spending time with my bf. I was reading books more and watching series that thinking of projects to do. I know that I should not stop doing art. It's so unlike me.

Next year I got a lot of things to catch up like my art, my blog, my work and my generally my life...I was so complacent this year. It's time to shake things up.

Merry Christmas Everyone!

2009-12-24T17:56:00.000-08:00

Pusudi and Me

2009-12-24T04:00:00.001-08:00

37... 13 to go

2009-12-24T01:39:00.000-08:00

This year I made a challenge to myself to read 50 books. Right now I am reading #38. I still got a dozen books to go and a week left. I don't know if I will get to my 50 mark but still 38 books is feat especially with my busy schedule.

Here is the list of the books I read this year.

* The Last Watch- Sergei Lukianenko (1)
* Shanghai Baby- Wei Hui (2)
* The Stranger- Albert Camus (3)

* The Southern Vampire Series- Charlaine Harris -Dead Until Dark (4)
-Living Dead in Dallas (5)
-Club Dead (6)
-Dead to the World (7)
-Dead as a Doornail (8)
-Definitely Dead (9)
-All Together Dead (10)
-From Dead to Worse (11)
-Deand and Gone (12)

*They Whisper- Robert Olen Butler (13)
*The Cider House Rules-John Irving (14)
*The Devil Wears Prada- Lauren Weisberger (15)
*Ed Gein Psycho - Paul Anthony Woods (16)
*The Time Traveler's Wife- Audrey Niffenegger (17)
*Candy - Kevin Brooks (18)
*The Gilded Chamber- Rebecca Kohn (19)
*Coraline - Niel Gaiman (20)

*Ultimate Hitchiker's Guide Series - Douglas Adams -Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy (21)
-Restaurant at the End's of the Universe (22)

*Girl Interrupted - Susanna Kaysen (23)
*Unbearable Lightness of Being- Milan Kundera (24)

*The Luxe Series- Anna Godbersen -The Luxe (25)
-Rumors (26)
-Envy (27)
-Splendor (28)

*The Rachel papers- Amis (29)
*Where the Wild Things are- Maurice Sendak (30)

*Harry Potter Series -J.K. Rowling -Harry Potter and the Oder of Phoenix (31)
-Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince (32)
-Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows (33)

*The Inheritance Series - Christopher Paolini -Eragon (34)
-Eldest (35)
-Brisingr (36)

*Birth of Venus -Sarah Dunant (37)

As you can see the I read a lot of series and books that are made into movies or tv series.

Right now I am reading The Brief and Wondorous life of Oscar Wao by Junot Diaz.

Hope next year I can manage to finish my 50 book challenge.

Camp Christmas Party

2009-12-24T01:25:00.000-08:00

Last December 15 I went to Cebu to attend my company's Christmas party.

Funny the person who I got as a Manito was Derwin and was also the one who got to pick me! Thanks Der for the anti stress lotion.

After the Christmas party at TGIF we went to Mayan. Bryan bought us a shot of margarita or mojito. Thanks Bry!

A Day before Christmas Post

2009-12-23T22:17:00.000-08:00

At last I finally got my Christmas break. While my Mom is busy preparing for Noche Buena I am tinkering with this Blog. I have not blog that much this year. Then there was a hiatus with accessing this blog. I'm glad that it's back to normal. I can not give up this blog even though I have a daily musings tumblr.

My Mom is very proud with her Christmas Tree this year.

Preview of the gifts

My gift for my BF. Apparently he couldn't wait for Christmas he already opened his gift.

Lastly my gift for myself a revamped blog.

I'm a Gleek

2009-10-31T19:25:00.000-07:00

Lately me and my sister are addicted to the series Glee.

When I first read about Glee I thought not another musical but I was wrong. It's like high school musical for adults. I really love the different characters. Though they seem the usual stereotypes the jocks, the nerds ....the high school hierarchy. But the characters are more than they seem. I love that in the show there is no clear protagonist or antagonist (well except for Sue). Each character has his or her ups and downs. I like that Mr. Schu is not the usual teacher who has all the answers. His life is not perfect and he doesn't always make the right decisions. But of all the characters I really really love Sue Sylverster.

Sue: I'm going to ask you to smell your armpits. That's the smell of failure, and it's stinking up my office.

I really like her character. Sue is super confident that she thinks the world revolves around her. I like the way she imposts her opinions on other people. One of the freakiest characters I have met.

Sue: I'll often yell at homeless people: 'Hey, how is that homelessness working out for you? Try not being homeless for once.'

Sue: I empower my Cheerios to live in fear by creating an environment of irrational, random terror.

“I’ve always thought the desire to procreate showed deep, personal weakness. Me – never wanted kids. Don’t have the time, don’t have the uterus.”

I really love her lines. The way she really believes in herself even though the idea seems so preposterous.

Reflections

2009-10-31T18:25:00.000-07:00

It's ironic that when I was happy and contented I rarely made blog posts. When I feel down the words easily flows out.

It is the same with my art. When I look back at my past personal art projects it dwell on my reflections on the events in my life.

BUT I also realize that even though I may feel down I do not want to dip into my own pool of sad emotions. Instead I should put all my pent up emotions into being productive.

I do not want to be defined by relationships instead I want being be define with my art. Since I have been happy with my current relationship that I let myself be lax with my art. The year is almost over and I have not made any personal art projects. I think I should have my own personal "Me" time.

Red Series

2009-09-25T01:17:00.000-07:00

I miss wearing trendy and fashionable stuff. Nowadays its polo shirts, pants and flipflops. My money goes to books so I have no budget for clothes or new shoes. Still that does not stop me from want nice things.

Armed with an empty pocket but an insatiable imagination, looklet has helped me fashion daydreaming come true. I found looklet at chuvaness. It kinda reminds me of the virtual closet of Cher in clueless.

With lots of clothes to choose I still gravitate towards the reds and the black. So I made my "Red Series".

I love plaid so this jacket really caught my eye. Her belt is somehow inspired by Jane's belt of Sea of shoes. Then there's my obsession with boots. You never have enough of them! Imagine myself hanging out with my girl friends with this...

As usual you can still the trade mark pieces, the distinct red jacket and boots. I could go to the office in these...I know I would definitely get looks. When your an artist you the excuse to dress whatever you want.

Red plaid shirt, funky red boots and liquid leggings. I see myself doing some exploring and sketchbook doodling with this.

There is no plaid and boots here...this look would be for those serious client meetings.

...and this one is for date night.

The Long Weekend

2009-09-20T08:35:00.000-07:00

DVD marathon, potato chips and dip, chocolate.

Then there's hanging out by the computer...Facebooking.

Welcome a New member of the family

2009-08-30T03:13:00.000-07:00

My sister's birthday is near and I thought I should give her an early birthday present. I made her choose between a mango shirt or a tomagotchi. She chose the latter. She has been begging to buy her one...finally I bought her one. Besides the tomagotchi I got her the CD of duster (which I am currently listening to

She named her tomagotchi Brandon after the incubus' lead vocals.

weird day

2009-08-29T07:55:00.000-07:00

I had the weirdest day ever. Earlier today I attended my cousin's wedding. I bought my sister early birthday gift. We visited my sick aunt. When we got back home, we learned my pet dog Squeegee died. Then around quarter to eleven my sister got a text message that my Aunt just died.

While my Officemates Where Away...

2009-08-24T22:50:00.000-07:00

While my officemates went to Shanghai for a vacation I was also busy. Not really for the Kadayawan but I attended a wedding and a baptism. I had two days off plus Friday was also a holiday. Wednesday I was panic buying for a dress and a gift.

Earlier my Mom was invited to attend the wedding of her close friend Myrna Ong. We used to live near the Ong's in Damosa. My Moom said that I used to play with Ong children. I couldn't really remember because I was maybe 3-4 at that time. The Ong children were older than me. I got lost touch with them because we moved around a lot but my Mom never lost touch with Tita Myrna. Last time my Mom was also invited at Pearly's wedding. I was not around that time because I was in Manila. Mom was invited again to attend Lovely's wedding. Pearly is the second daughter and Lovely is the eldest. With lots of free time I decided to accompany my Mom to event. In the invitation it said the dress code was formal. I had to buy something because all my formal clothes are black. It is in tradition that you should wear black to the wedding. Wednesday I went shopping with my Mom.

I had a hard time finding something to wear. I am obviously not in my sexy state and so finding a dress is hard. Finding decent clothes here in Davao is also a challenge. After mall hopping I finally found a dress. Somehow luck was on my side, the dress was in a sale. I already had a pair of shoes at home so that was not a problem. I also manage to buy a gift for my future God daughter.

Saturday came. I wanted to have my hair done in a saloon because my hair is a mess but I woke up late so I had my sister blow dry my hair. I was not spectacular but at least it was its usual messy state.

Here is my gorgeous self....cough,cough well not really...

When I got to the Church I found the place was decorated nicely. Chandeliers where used to light the pathway toward the altar. Lots of white flowers. I really love the color of the dresses of the entourage. They wore teal! I thought the motif was dark blue because of the invitation but I like colors they used. From the principal sponsors to the cute little flowers girls everything was custom made. I was too shy to take pictures since I don't know them. I was also wearing 3 inch heels so taking pictures would take some effort.

I really wanted to take a picture of the beautiful Lovely but unfortunately my shots were blurry because of the low light. I didn't want to use flash...which was a mistake.

The wedding dinner was at 6 0'clocl but guests where served with cocktails. There were lots of chocolate, biscuits, nuts, candies and what not. There was also an open bar. I REALLY wanted to go there but I was with my Mom and my Mom does not know I drink. There was also a chocolate fountain. There was a large fresh fish for sushi. I didn't really much because I was preparing myself for dinner...even though the chocolate fountain was tempting.

When we finally got to Marco Polo's grand ball room, I was awestruck by the decorations. More beatiful large colored chandeliers, fresh white flowers and ambient lighting. The grand ball room didn't look the same..last time I was here when I took my IELTS exam. The room was really transformed. I wish I had a better camera with me. The dinner, the program...everything was superb. I really loved the dress Lovely wore for the reception. The designers went there and I could see that they were very proud of their creation. It was a very glamorous wedding. I have attended a number of weddings in my life and this was on top of my list.

The parade of food seems endless. There was a point where I wanted to eat more but I was already at a tipping point. I also fell in love with the dessert table. It was endless treats from Lachi's. It's my sister's and my favorite maker of cakes and sweets. I wanted to try everything but only manage to try four types.

I was happy that I did accompany my Mom to the said event. I got to see a very very beautiful wedding. Lovely and Roger is also a very happy couple. All through out the wedding they both keep of laughing and giggling. I didn't get to take a decent picture of the couple...bad digi cam.

here is the happy couple Lovely and Roger Gentugaya

When I got home I rummage through the give-away I got. I find the contents very sweet...literally sweet. A mug, a packet of cocoa, a packet of cappuccino, mints, kisses, and M&M's. Everything is personalized.

They even had the M&M's with their faces on it. My Mom doesn't want to eat her share.

*****
Sunday I was late for the Baptism. It was a double baptism of my nephew and niece. I am the God mother of Angel the younger one. After the baptism at church we went to my Cousin's house. It was actually a triple celebration. I was my cousin's birthday also.

Here I am with my God daughter Angel.

Next Saturday I am going attend again another wedding. It's going to be my cousin's wedding. I wouldn't be fancy but a simple affair.

25 books to go

2009-08-18T18:43:00.000-07:00

In my 50 books challenge I have accomplished half of it already. Here are the books that I am planning to read next.

erotica
* Best American Erotica 1994
*Forbidden Fruit
*Delta of Venus- Anias Nin

Books by Gregory Maguire
*Confessions of an Ulgy Step sister
*Wicked
*Son of a Witch

Coming of Age stories
*All the Blue Moons at the Wallace Hotel - Phoebe Stone
*Too Cool- Duff Brenna
*Innocence - Jane Mendelsohn
*Reap -Eric Rickstand
* The Rachel Papers -Martin Amis

In inheritance Cycle by Christopher Paolini
*Eragon
*Eldest (not shown)

The Brief and Wonderous Life of Oscar Wao - Junot Diaz

Collections
*The Ulitmate Hitchiker's Guide
*Dexter

*Japan

Since my 50 book challenge I have been filling up my shelves with books again. Right now I am finishing the Harry Potter series. I have books 1-4 but didn't bought the last three books. I get read the last three books through my friends.

Downsizing

2009-08-18T17:50:00.000-07:00

My family has a knack of collecting things. From clothes, shoes, toys, magazines, decorations and what not. After awhile these things tends to pile up. My closets are filled with clothes that I wore eons ago. Only a small percent that I really wear. Then there is a closet filled with bags and shoes. I am not bragging because even though I have a closet filled with whatever but most of the bulk are almost junk for me.

It's recession and every one is in a tight budget my sister needs to raise funds so she feels that we need to downsize our things. As they say one man's garbage is another man's treasure. Last week my sister and her friend rented a stall at Matina Town square. For 6 days I got to go to MTS after work.

These are some of the stuff that we sold

Totek, Neneng, Meg and Marco (my sister and her friends who helped at the bazar)

shots of bazat at MTS.

Usually in our breaks we have a bowl of cereal and cheesy nachos at Keepsakes.

It was a new experience for me and my sister because we are not really entrepreneurial people. My sister did get to meet new people and got to practice her rusting people skills. Overall the experience was fun. My sister did not sell everything but a lot of stuff were sold. The last day was the most tiring and also the most interesting. I got to see Sandwich perform live and free. But I am also glad that it is over because it was tiring me out going to MTS after work and staying there till 12. My sister will probably continue disposing old stuff but she will be doing it at home. Hope you could drop by sometime.

The Inner Pixie

2009-08-13T00:10:00.000-07:00

Halloween is around the corner. Even though a horror lover kind of gal but when I am thinking of dressing up for Halloween I would wear something bright and whimsical. Yeah I know its ironic because people who know me would think that I would don on a gothic outfit. Instead I would definitely pick most pink fairy princess dream costume I could find. Looking around the net I have seen my favorite fashion bloggers wear rainbow inducing outfits that makes me want to put fairy wings myself.

Here are Doedeere and Gala

With my inner little girl went to look up at cute costumes at princesstimestoys . Found lots of cute stuff. I got my eye on their latest Halloween line called the Simply Spooky. Little girls could pretend and have their own little adventures.

The sun is up and the flowers are blooming you could be a cheerful bu mble bee in the garden.

You want adventure and explore the seas as a pirate.

Magic is in the air and you smell something is brewing. You could be the neighborly witch.

Tap your ruby slippers as Dorothy did.

Think happy thoughts and fairy dust. Fluttering like sweet quirky Tinkerbell.

You could be a shy laybug out in the garden for an afternoon stroll.

Be a little mermaid singer her heart out on the shore.

Well you could be like me be a fairy...

Besides these dresses for Halloween they have a Disney Princess line...like you just got of from Disneyland. Their costumes have good quality and easy take care since its washable. You could be a fairy not just for Halloween (I'm talking to little girls here).

At princesstimestoys they off not only costumes for little girls (and boys too!) from ages 1 to 9 but they also offer stuff for women with inner pixies in them... They also have offer other products like accessories, bedroom decor, toys, and even stuff for pets!

You can check out their blog or be updated with their twitter account.

Just wish I could fairy wings to work tomorrow....

*costumes picture from princesstimestoys

The Uncreatives

2009-07-16T02:25:00.000-07:00

Half of the year has already passed by and my art projects are going nowhere. I have not dabble in anything creative lately...even in my blogging. I do not know if its lack of inspiration or I am just lazy.

Lately I don't have any new projects so I have not worked on anything new. I can not say I have a lot of free time but I do have small tasks every now then. I also have my free time thinking about the scamables for the creative meeting each Thursday. I don't actually know the definition of what is really an awardable ad so it's going to be a hit and miss on my idea formulation process.

I somehow feel uncreative these days. I said to an officemate that maybe my company will reject with my bland ideas and he said that we both on the same boat and trying hard to come up with ideas. I said we were now the uncreatives.

Maybe I should pick up my pencil and maybe makes some doodles.

Father's day mayhem

2009-06-21T23:53:00.000-07:00

In less than a month my Father will be leaving for Australia. I have been helping him out with the things he needs to bring there. One of the major stuff are the techie gadgets. He wanted helped in canvasing what he would buy. I did not get to help with his cell phone because he just bought a new one out of the blue. He bought a Nokia 5800. He was very proud and would not even let me or my sister tinker with it. I did help with his laptop buying. I already have a friend who I contact if I need to buy a laptop. It took awhile for him to decided whether he will buy a laptop or not. Finally my father decided to buy one.

Now my problem is teaching my father how to use it. So last Sunday we celebrated Father's day at K1 spa. We did not avail the spa services instead we went there for the wifi. After eating dinner wet there lugging two laptops, my sister's and my Father's. It was a Sunday so there were no customers. We took out the laptops ang order Nachos and drinks. Then I started my tutorial...
Internet 101, Connecting the laptop throught Wifi, How to Chat through YM and skype.

At least we were somehow reserved...well compared when I was teaching him at home we were shouting at each other...don't do this, click that, double click, right click.....After the session I was drained. I didn't even get to peek my facebook because the time we stayed at K1 I was the teaching my Father a lot of stuff. My sister assisted when we taught him how to chat. We tested his built in web cam. My Mom was the only one not tinkering with any gadget. Around 9:30 we headed home.

That was only part one of the tutorials...sigh

Random-randomness

2009-06-21T23:33:00.000-07:00

There are a lot realizations I have lately....

first ...I realized that the main reason I have not been blogging anything lately because I spend too much time with facebook (damn you Mafiawars).

second... I suck at making faces or doing wacky shots.

The picture is cropped so you can only see my hand...

third...there is life after sex scandal.

fourth...I have been in rut lately when it comes to doing creative stuff.

My workload lately involves fine tuning the approve materials so its just no brainer tasks. I have not put my brain to good use. It not just with work even with my personal stuff. I have not draw, paint, sketch, took a photo for the past few months. I feel that my creativity seems to be dead (no wonder I make crappy wacky shots....) But I know I must not cultivate this creative rut.

Somehow my boss challenges us to make better campaigns...so my almost dread brain will no be force to restart all engines. sigh.

What happened when my blog lay dormant

2009-06-15T01:36:00.000-07:00

It's been awhile since I last wrote a blog entry. I checked and I have two drafts. I am not going to continue those blog entries because it is already outdated.

I plurked the other day about not blogging anything. One plurker replied that maybe nothing is happening in my life. That is quite the opposite. There are lot of stuff going on and I have just no time to blog about it.

It has been a whirlwind for me with my workload, going to Cebu with my sister and a scandal (that has rocked not only my but the whole country).

One of my drafts is titled wildfire. It was about a relative being involved in the recent scandal. I am really sad for her and do wish she is doing ok despite everything. All I can say we all do foolish things for love at one point of our lives. I hope people will not judge her for what they saw. . . (what happened really made me sad and worry but I can't really do anything about it since its a long time since I had contact with her). I will always pray that you have the strength to face everything.

Enough about the scandal thing... I had just went to Cebu with my sister. It was suppose to be the last outing of my sister with her barkada before starting their review but unforseen circumstances I went with my sister to serve as a chaperone. I have a blast. It was a break from weeks of heavy workload and my IELTS exam. We met with long lost cousins, went mall hopping, tried the sky walk and the edge coaster and hang out with an Aunt her family. It was fun outing with out the parentals.

Last Saturday I finally got my IELTS results. I have been dreading it. I assumed that I would get 5 for my writing test. I did not get a 5 but a 6 for my writing test. Still not the score I wanted. I am suprised that I got 8 for my speaking ang 8.5 for my listening. I got a 7 for my reading which is already good. I hope I will not take the test again because I got a 6. I do not know if ever I will take the test if I will get the an 8 or an 8.5 mark again.

Being busy with lots of stuff I have not made any personal projects. I did not blog, took a picture or drew in my moleskin. The only thing I continue to do is my 50 book challange. I am right now reading my 23rd book. I have to finish 25 books this month, so I got two books to go and I am already half my 50 mark.

I have been glum lately due to my weight. I feel fat. I must find a diet that suit me. I cannot skip meals or spend more time in the gym. If I eat super less I tend to have headaches or I don't have energy. I used to be a camwhore right now I avoid taking pictures because I am a sight for sore eyes. I should get my act together!

I should find a way to lift my spirits up. Somehow I feel I am in my yearly slump. I must find a way to rejuvenate my creativity and spark inspiration. All this Facebooking made my blog empty. I must wean myself from mafia wars.

I got half year to go till the year is over and I must challenge myself to do more.

Trying to Pick up Pace

2009-04-28T18:52:00.000-07:00

I have been busy with lots of things lately that I have not blogged anything in awhile…

Writing formal essays is not as easy as it seems

A month from now I will take the IELTS exams. I cannot really say that I am already confident for the exam. The past weeks of review were a challenge to me. I had to schedule my review right after my work. I never went to my evening classes on time. What the heck. It’s better than no taking the review classes at all. My first mock-exam was a disaster. I got a five for my writing test and 6 for my speaking test. My reading and listening test were okay, I got a 7.5 on both accounts. I expected the worst because it was first try at the exam. There were times in my speaking test that I had nothing to say or I kept repeating things. The writing test on the other hand I was reprimanded for writing in all caps. I write that way because my writing is not that nice. I said to myself I could do better. The succeeding mock exam results were better. I even got a 7.5 for my speaking. My reading and listening test ranges from 6.5-8 (but I need to get a 7). My writing test is on the other hand really needs improvement. I thought I could get good marks with this test because I used to write. Then I realize that writing formal essays is hard. I used to write but it was more of the creative side. I have to organize my thoughts and never forget to recheck what I wrote. Unfortunately I always ran out of time. I really need to practice thinking and writing fast.

Addicted to Reading
When I was in Cebu I had no other forms of entertainment. So I choose reading books. When I got back here in Davao reading books stuck with me. Now I joined a 50 book challenge a year in shelfari. I calculated that I should finish at least 4 books a month and 12-13 books per quarter. This quarter I have finished reading 14 books. I might add not bad.
* The Last Watch- Sergei Lukianenko (1)
* Shanghai Baby- Wei Hui (2)
* The Stranger- Albert Camus (3)
* The Southern Vampire Series- Charlaine Harris
-Dead Until Dark (4)
-Living Dead in Dallas (5)
-Club Dead (6)
-Dead to the World (7)
-Dead as a Doornail (8)
-Definitely Dead (9)
-All Together Dead (10)
-From Dead to Worse (11)

*They Whisper- Robert Olen Butler (12)
*The Cider House Rules-John Irving (13)
*The Devil Wears Prada- Lauren Weisberger (14)
Right now I am reading The Time Traveller’s Wife and Psycho the book about Ed Gein.

What happened to my Creativity List!
The other year I made a plan to make a creativity list. This is a list of things I have to do each month to fuel my creativity. It involves reading books, watching movies, making sketches, having a photo shoot and writing something like a poem, story or whatever. I did manage to do it the first month but then I couldn’t manage to do it the following months. I don’t know if its lack of time or if it lack discipline. I did manage to do some of the things in the list but not everything.

Preparing for Summer
It’s already summer and it’s time to have sometime on the beach. My high school friends and I really want to go on an outing but have not found the perfect place to. Right now I cannot go to any outing to the beach because I am still recuperating from my cyst operation. But when all is healed and well you bet I want to haul my ass to any beach. Summer outing also means lomo time for me. Lomo cams work better with lots of sunshine so going to the beach would be a wonderful opportunity to take pictures. I got lots of films collecting dust in my shelves and not the time to use them.

Trying to be an Adult
My father will be leaving to Australia soon. Since I am the oldest I am the one take responsibility of taking care of my family. I am not the breadwinner but I will manage stuff for my father. I have tried living on my own so I am not really new to taking responsibilities for one’s own shit but still I do ponder if I got what it takes… I knew I have to manage my time. The first months will definitely challenging but will an optimist heart everything should be ok. Hopefully I would still have time to blog by then.

Old FM10+Fuji Sensia

2009-04-19T23:56:00.000-07:00

More Pictures with Kuya Al

2009-04-19T07:58:00.000-07:00

me and my kuya Al grade 5 pa ata ako dito

my elementary graduation

Apple's First birthday

Kuya Al

2009-04-19T04:14:00.000-07:00

After an unplanned three day visit I cam home feeling depressed. I went o Manila to attend my Kuya Al's funeral.

Sad News Before the Holy Week

-- GROUNDED. The flagship helicopter of President Gloria Macapagal Arroyo is grounded on Maundy Thursday at the lawn of the presidential Mansion in Baguio City. INQUIRER NORTHERN LUZON/EV ESPIRITU

Last, last week, Wednesday I woke up hearing sad news that a presidential helicopter was missing the day before. One of the pilots was cousin Kuya Al. At first I was hopeful. "They will surely find the chopper and everyone is alive." I said to myself. I did not want to entertain any pessimistic thoughts. I went to work with a heavy heart. When I got to the office I opened my internet browser to Inquirer, abs-cbn news and gma news. I looked for related articles. After a few minutes I refreshed to check for updates. There was news that the helicopter was found but I know something wasn't right. The helicopter was described as totally burned. After a few hours there were already news of found bodies. At first there were three, then five and then there were seven (There were a total of 8 people in the helicopter). I was at home when I watched late night news Bandila. My heart sank when the newscaster reported that there were no survivors of the helicopter crash. All hope is lost when I saw Kuya Al's picture with his four year old daughter was posted on screen. I was grief stricken but I didn't cry. After watching the news and saying a quick goodbye to my bf, I lay down on my beside my sister in my room, we were unspeaking and quietly grieving.

Villamor Air Base, Pasay City - The seven bodies of the eight passenger of the ill-fated Presidential Chopper Bell 412 which crashed last 7 April 2006 in Ifugao Province. Photo shows Col Cimatu, PAF Chaplain, who blessed the bodies and would later be brought to the Hero's Hall at the Malacañang Palace. (Photo by TSg Bruna)

A Gathering of a family

My Kuya Al, his wife and kids live in Villamor Airbase. My Aunt and my cousins live in Mindanao. I knew there were a lot of planning to do. We were waiting for the final wake and funeral plans. By Saturday there was a plane provided by the Air force for the relatives that will go to Manila. Me and my sister wanted to go but the funeral plans wasn't final. I have work and an upcoming event. Sunday we learned that there will be another plane on Tuesday and the plane will be back by Friday. The funeral was on Thursday at the Libingan ng Mga Bayani. My Mother said she was going and I decided that I wanted to go too. I immediately send a text message to my boss asking for a three day leave. When my boss gave permission I started packing and planned the things I should accomplish before I leave for Manila. The flight schedule kept on changing. My Mom even decided not to go because of the very erratic schedule. I still wanted to go. This is my last time to say good bye to him.

Riding C130

When I woke up Tuesday morning I was already hurrying up because I was going to be late for work. After taking a bath my sister barged in the room with the news that we were going to Manila at ten o'clock in the morning and it was already 8. I had already packed my things and so I had to add only a few more items. My sister on the other hand was in packing frenzy. The day before we all thought that schedule of the plane was going to be on Wednesday. I thought to myself that I had one more day at work. My sister even went home late because she thought that the trip to Manila was cancelled. When we were heading to the old airport my father received a text message that people were already boarding the plane. My Mom said that if we were meant to go God will find a way, I on the other hand thought that if the plane left I could go to work. Fortunately the C130 was still there when we got to the airport. After security the check up we waited. I had to tell people that I was flying Manila. There was something wrong with the Globe network and I could not send a message. I borrowed my sister’s phone and sent a message to Marga my officemate that I was not going to work that day. I wanted to text other people but we were boarding. This is not the first time I rode the C130. The last time was when I went home to Davao for Kuya Al’s wedding.

Prayers, Vigil and the Wake

The wake was held at Villamor Airbase Mortuary. When we arrived we were immediately brought to the Mortuary. Even in the entrance you can see a lot of big wreaths. The senders range from friends, relatives, Kuya Al’s superiors and government officials. When we inside I immediately saw Ate Rachel, Kuya Al’s wife she was with her daughters. It was my first time to see Angel the five month old baby. Angel is a very cute and happy baby. It’s sad to think that she will grow up not knowing her Father. I could see features of Kuya Al on her especially the dimple which is also located exactly like her father’s.

I had attended a lot of wake of relatives, friends and acquaintances. I usually don’t stay long. This my first time to attend a wake of a close relative. My family was really close to Kuya Al. Before he went to PMA he stayed for three years with my family. He was an engineering student at UM then. When I was also exiled in Manila in 2005 I stayed with his family at the Villamore Airbase. When Kuya Al was in Davao he never forget’s to visit my family.

At the mortuary you can’t see a coffin instead you can see a small container with my Kuya Al’s ashes in it. He was cremated. Sad to say there were only bits and pieces that were found of his body. He was the last one to be found. As I look at his framed picture I could remember a lot of happy memories. He had a very light and happy demeanor. He was one of the few male cousins who was patient enough to play Barbie with me and my sister. He loved kids and I really saw his devotion with his daughter when I lived with his family in 2005. His death really saddens me but I couldn’t image what is going through my Ate Rachel mind. What I am feeling is multiplied a hundred times more with what is Ate Rachel is going through or my Auntie Glory (she is my Kuya Al’s mom and my father’s older sister).

At the Libing ng Mga Bayani

At the Villamor's Chapel

It was not your regular funeral. There was a band, a lot of uniformed men and lots of formalities. There was a long walk from the entrance toward the area where they will put Kuya Al in his final resting place. The band played a very mournful song. There was a helicopter that threw rose petals in the air. There was also a gun salute. Everyone was very emotional in the part where the flag is folded and given to Ate Rachel and Auntie Glory. I really wanted to cry but I usually don’t cry in public. When people where dispersing I found my sister. She told me that mother broke her sandal and was stuck in a van somewhere. I didn’t dwell on my grief any more and gathered my spirits to look for my mother. While attending to mother I didn’t know what else happened. I just watched from a far. Later President Gloria Macapagal Arroyo went to say condolences. Everyone wanted to have a glimpse of her. My Mother, my sister and I on the other did not want to join in the chaos. We just watched from afar.

That afternoon I already went back to Davao because work to attend to in the following day.

I know Kuya Al is now in God’s hand. Somehow I am happy that he is finally at peace. He died serving his country, he left many happy memories and he will always be remembered. His life maybe short but I know it was full.

My Valentine’s days will now have more color and meaning. That is Kuya Al’s birthday. He showed how loved should not be limited to people around you. He lived and died for love, love of family and love of country.

Ill-fated chopper’s pilots fought Abu Sayyaf

In Loving Memory of Captain Alvin Alegata

Tree Frog Monday

2009-03-18T19:03:00.000-07:00

Last week has been a very slow week and this week is not picking up pace either. There is nothing really interesting to blog about...well except I saw a tree frog stuck on the door frame last Monday. I know its lame. I mean last Monday was "Araw ng Dabaw". It's a holiday here me and my bf had no work. I was really excited to do something new...instead we just stay at home and watch DVDs. My bf is banned to go to my room so we were stuck watching the dvds on my portable dvd player outside the house. Sigh...I really should do something one of these days...

Here is the tree frog.

My Bf looks like a silly kid who had just saw something cool

...and this is my reaction.

Lusting for Gadgets

2009-03-12T23:25:00.000-07:00

An officemate of mine is selling his Leica Dlux 3. I really really want to buy it. Unfortunately my funds would not suffice. I was looking around the internet on the prices of Leica Dlux 3 when I stumbled upon Panasonic Lumix LX3. The lenses are the same with latest Leica Dlux 4. Its cheaper. Somehow the price is reachable. I went on researching on it more and fould that I REALLY want to buy one. I had just bought a p & s camera so I have to maximize its usage before I would think about buying another camera.

It is not as pretty are the Leica counterpart but its cheaper. Its not really a DSLR but this P&S has very cool manual options.

Another gadget that is on my mind is the ipod touch. I am currently using my sister's ipod. My sister owns two ipods. One four year old ipod mini (which I am using) and a 30 gig ipod video. She really wants an iphone but she thinks it to expensive for a graduation gift. Anyways when I was asking aroung about iphone prices when my officemate recommended that buy an itouch instead. It's the same thing minus the phone part. The prices where also reachable and made me think about buying one.

candy....can't wait

I have something but I am still contemplating on what gadget I would buy first....right now all I could do is save and drool on information about the gadgets in the net.

Am not the only one with a new hair cut

2009-03-04T20:32:00.000-08:00

Dream

2009-03-04T07:37:00.000-08:00

Destiny
Death

Destruction
Desire
Despair
Delirium...

the endless

These are some of the memorable character's in Niel Gaiman's The Sandman series. When I was in Cebu I had a lot of idle time and I was fortunate enough to have my days with the endless. An office mate lent me his sandman collection.

I can't really say what is my favorite quote because every word, line, senetence, paragraphs seems to be little jems of inspiration. Instead I will share Delirium's words at her brother's wake.

One for sorrow, two for sorrow, three for sorrow, four for for for I don't know. But I'm bored of sorrow, five for three two one, six for gold, seven for a magpie who tells me where to go...

Delirium -The Wake

I dream that someday I will also a Niel Gaiman collection. Right now there's a possibility my dream could come true. Avalon.ph is giving away a signed copy of
Interworld

I you want to join the dream just click on the link.

The Shinning

2009-02-28T21:33:00.000-08:00

I'm a Stephen King fan. Since high school I tried reading all of his novels and his movies. I have read The shinning even watched the mini TV series remake. I haven't watched the Stanley Kubrick version. I am a horror fanatic. I do try to watch the latest horror flicks but I also try the classics. The shinning is one of the movies I want to watch.

This film had mixed views. Even Stephen King had apprehensions with this version (he even produced a mini tv series remake later). I am not a film critic I'm more of a horror film lover so I will not dwell on how the critics received the film. The movie did deviate from the novel. Still this version has spot in my heart. Others might not like the slow pacing but for me I liked. I guess I like my horror slow. I love the vast eerie empty interiors of the Outlook view hotel. If I were a little child I would definitely loved exploring this hotel.

A horror movie would not be complete without the carnage.

This scene is just sublime. Dexter would love this then again maybe (definitely it would remind him of his Mom).

I don't recommend this to everyone. Some could fall asleep in this movie. The scary moments aren't enough. But I love Jack Nicholson's portrayal of Jack Torrence. Thought it is not faithful to the book but he is one scary Dad.

My Makeshift Home Entertainment system

2009-02-28T20:22:00.000-08:00

The TV in my room is busted. At first watching cable wasn't possible. The only thing you can do is watch DVDs. Now you can't do anything with it well except staring at your own reflection. I bought a portable dvd player when I was in Cebu. I remembered that I could rig the cable with it. So there you go I can finally watch cable table. I even attached the old computer speakers to boost the sound. hehehe

New Hair Cut

2009-02-28T20:11:00.000-08:00

My old boring hair

I am bored with my lifeless hair. I really don't have a cut in mind. Something short just to cut off the remnants of post break up dyed brown hair last year. My sister and I was waiting for my bf to arrive. My sister told me about the Korean saloon just across the street. I knew we had a lot time so I gave it a try. I just picked out a cut short hair from the catalog.

My new hair....

I want You

2009-02-25T06:28:00.000-08:00

It's been quite a while since the last time I went home early and had the library and computer area by myself. I miss those times when I had lots of idle time, lots of things to ponder and plenty of angst to fuel my writing. I was living a very complicated life then. I was very rebellious and angry. I wrote poetry like this

It was never meant to beHe was the forbidden fruit of my wretched garden of
sinHe thought that he could have meI was the one who corrupted his mind.
temptation of a prince -02-27-2005

I saw the person who inspired this poem. It reminded me of the days when I was still emotional, impulsive and very experimental. It was a very dark phase for me but somehow I learned a lot from it. It's been four years since dark dark year and a lot has changed. Right now my blog entries are boring and less meladramatic. Now I see things differently but in a better light. That Prince I mentioned in my poem has also matured. Still he is the silly guy I like hanging out with. We both chose different paths but somehow crossed paths again because of a sad circumstance. I hope he has found peace as I have found mine.

Sigh this so I unlike me soooo EMO. hehehe

PS. I didn't know what titled I would give this entry so I just shuffled my ipod and named the blog after the song on my Ipod.

My Current Vice

2009-02-24T00:21:00.000-08:00

My original title was My current Vice-online shopping then I wanted to change it to my current vice-book buying still I feel that is not it. So that the title would be just My current vice. In this article I want to talk about my (ummm do I sound like I'm talking to a shrink?) impulsive buying lately. Early this month I bought a box set of Charlaine Harris' The Southern Vampire series. Right after watching the whole season of True Blood I wanted to read the book series. I knew I could not find the series at local National bookstore I opted to buy the books online instead. I ordered for the books and hoped for the best. While waiting confirmation of my order I saw that there was a boxed at National. If I purchased it there it would be cheaper because there won't be any shipping cost. I didn't but it immediately. I thought about it buying it later but when I asked the saleslady if they had other stocks she replied that it was the last stock. My online order didn't confirm and it was already two days so I decided it was best to buy it. My money was P100 short so I had to withdraw from atm.

Then a few weeks later I saw that avalon.ph was having an anniversary sale. The book auctions started at P10. So I placed bids and won a couple of books (I won six books to be exact). I also found The Ultimate Hitchiker's Guide book was on sale. So without batting an eyelash I bought a book. Saturday and Sunday I finally got my package.

Among my purchases I really love this one.

My story doesn't end here. I also bought another two books still from avalon.ph auctions. I'm going to get the books by next week...and I also bought a new pair of shoes...

Sigh Why was online shopping invented now I'm a click away to unleash my impulsive shopping antics....

Collections

2009-02-22T09:11:00.001-08:00

I was bored at home I went around the house to take random snapshots. I realized that my family likes collecting things. I used to collect books...but that's another story. Here are some of my family's collections.

my sister's flip flops

colorful nail polish
(it's rather a small collection but I took a picture becuase I think it pretty)

My Mom's white breakables

hmmm a beautiful angel playing the guitar

my Mom's tea set collection

....even has a religious theme tea set

What do you collect?

Helping Out

2009-02-22T08:53:00.000-08:00

It was a boring weekend. I just stayed at home, watched dvd's and slept. My sister on the other hand was very busy. She was working on her individual Case Presentation. I offered my help to make the into part unfortunately when I finally sat down and read an example I didn't understood a thing.
All the medical terms made me feel like I'm having a nose bleed. After a couple of tries I give. I am very thankful that I'm not the medical field. Right now I am still up because I'm assisting my sister in the printing. At least I know I could do that.

Summer Ad Camp

2009-02-21T06:15:00.000-08:00

I remember the time when I had my practicum. I had a lot of fun but I also learned a lot. It was my first time to be exposed to the real advertising stuff. Now summers comming and my company will have a Summer Ad Camp.

Open to all incoming college seniors taking up fine arts, masscom, and business administration/management, who see themselves working in the advertising industry soon, Summer Ad Camp is initially being offered to schools within Cebu. Only six (6) trainees will be accepted – all of whom will go through 7 weeks of intensive training that combines advertising theories and hands-on work that includes marketing, research, creative conceptualization, and the implementation of a real advertising campaign. The application period for Summer Ad Camp 09 runs for the whole month of February. Interested applicants may approach their respective school departments, visit the agency at 6/F BF Building, Escario Street or e-mail: summeradcamp@campcebu.net.

Cornify!!!

2009-02-18T21:46:00.000-08:00

Click the button and see my blog cornified! hehehe!

More than Just blogging

2009-02-18T19:40:00.000-08:00

Internet is the most accessible way to connect to people. Everyone has a secret wish to be famous or maybe at least be known to a number of people. I used to search my name in search engine just to see my online presence or just maybe someone wrote about me. I know its wishful thinking. Blogging for me is not just about making public personal journal. It’s a great opportunity to share information. It may not be scientific facts but small personal discoveries that could help other people in my case fellow artists. It’s like having your own PR manager.
Blogging is your own personal thing. You can be a neurotic blogging or can be a very organized one. If you want to reach as many people as possible you have to have an audience in mind. The blogs I always visit are the ones are easy to read and that have topics that I can’t relate to. The design for me is also a key. I’m a very visual person so aesthetics is a must.
Besides sharing information or personal opinions blogging is also an advertising opportunity. Effective bloggers not only get to have an audience but also earn from blogging. Since the boom of blogging advertisers could use bloggers as a tool. When they advertise on blogs they can get to target market easily. They can choose blogs that is related to product or service so that their ads won’t be a waste. It’s like hitting a bull’s eye.
I have blogging for several years now. I am not that active since my schedule can be erratic. It may not be my full time hobby but it is one of stress release pastimes. I friend recommended me to payingpost. I wanted to try my luck again with earning from my blogs. The signup is easy and the I also loved the simple and clean design. I like how uncluttered their opportunities page

Hopefully blogging will more than writing stuff from the top of your head. I will try to use my blogging constructively. May it be from sharing my views or even earning from it.

Inspiration VS Discouragement

2009-02-16T20:51:00.000-08:00

When I am browsing through art blogs I discover several works of artists. I am not really good at names but I remember the different art styles. It's like knowing the lyrics of the song but can't really remember the specific title or the artist. But there are names that really stick with me.

These are the artist that really look up to. When one work of artist has an impact to it tends to lead to two things...inspiration or discouragement. There are certain works that when I see it makes me grab my pencil and start drawing. There are also works that are soooo good that makes me wonder about my skills.

I will give you concrete example.

May Ann Licudine

I stumbled into her blog when it was nominated in a blog award last year. I really love her style. Every time I see her works it really puts a smile on my face. She is close to my age and she is also a Pinay like me. She already known and has done a lot. She always inspires me to practice my illustration skills. Every time I feel down I always look at her works.

Paolo Ramirez

I found his site through the M magazine (he is the creative director). His name is so familiar that I decided to check his site out. He is Dabawenyo like me and there is a possibility that he was my classmate in my elementary. He has a very different art style than mine (well maybe there was a point of my life when I strive to do awesome portraits). I really love his realistic remditions of portraits. His works made me that skills seems to be inadequate. (I had to gobble a lot of chocolates afterward hehehe)

When I look at it I am usually inspired/discourage with young artists. When I was younger I really believed that one should be good even at a young age. I guess I was in hurry then. Now I have a different mantra. I did see that experience is also a key in developing your skills. Maybe I relate more to May Ann because I see myself in her. Paolo in the other hand seems to has a different set of discipline than mine. In the end of the day I still love them both.

....yes a post valentine's post

2009-02-15T21:04:00.000-08:00

As cheesy as it might get I did get chocolates and a heart shape cake!

Good Friends or Chocolate to uplift your spirit

2009-02-13T00:07:00.000-08:00

Melissa Arbotante: huhuhu suya ko naa ko nakita sample works sa artist diri tagadavao
Melissa Arbotante: http://****.multiply.com/
Melissa Arbotante: feel naku naclassmate naku gradeschool pero dili ko sure
norbertelnar: ahahahaah
norbertelnar: saon
Melissa Arbotante: familliar kaayo ang name tapos ang age kay duol ra
Melissa Arbotante: suya ko niya kuyaw kaayo siya magillustrate!
Melissa Arbotante: nadepress na nuon ko kay nagatubang ko ug menu layout
Melissa Arbotante: huhuhu
norbertelnar: hahahahhaa
norbertelnar: hala oi
Melissa Arbotante: maski dili perfect iyang anatomy pero kuyaw lang gihapon siya magcolor
norbertelnar: sure ka
norbertelnar: iya jud ni worK
Melissa Arbotante: iya lagi
norbertelnar: aw maau jud cya
norbertelnar: ana lang
norbertelnar: eat chocolates nalang mel
Melissa Arbotante: ginatanaw man naku iyang dev art karun
Melissa Arbotante: sagdi lang mas gwapa man ko sa iyaha (wahahaha loser)
norbertelnar: ahahahahhaa
norbertelnar: saon
norbertelnar: relax lang oi
norbertelnar: tuo man ka niya
Melissa Arbotante: hehehe
norbertelnar: unya naa cyay boots?
norbertelnar: pareha sa imu?
Melissa Arbotante: hahaha
Melissa Arbotante: ngee wala man sa boots nu
norbertelnar: naa ra jud na sa boots mel
norbertelnar: nganu mka inom cya ug 25 liters of iced tea pareha nimo
norbertelnar: ?
Melissa Arbotante: hello wala na baya ko nag inum ug ice tea karun
norbertelnar: hahahahaha
norbertelnar: maka kaon cy aug 17 pesos ila manang?
Melissa Arbotante: hello dili na baya ko kakaon didto!
norbertelnar: wa jud na cyay binatbat nimo mel
norbertelnar: as in